Psalm 13: Too Long Without God

Too long, Lord,

have I stumbled in this darkness alone.

When will I hear from You?

Too many are these terrifying thoughts,

these painful worries breeding in the dark chambers of my hidden fears.

My body clenches like a bow string ready to snap;

my heart leaps and stutters.

When will You restore me to the quiet rhythm of your presence?

I search for You until my eyes ache.

I listen but hear only the mocking of the enemy

taunting my faith,

ridiculing my weakness.

Come breathe your strength into me, Holy Spirit,

before the light leaves my eyes

and I sleep the sleep of death.

Then the enemy will crow over me,

“See, I was right! Your God doesn’t love you.

Your faith has come to nothing.”

Yet I have known your love and help before, Lord.

You honored my trust with your saving grace

and stayed by me when I felt lost and alone.

Today I will trust You again.

I will sing the songs You gave me

to get me through times like this.

My soul will find rest in the quiet confidence

that I am your beloved

and You never leave me

to face my darkness alone.